When David Cassidy died in November the last thing he said before he left this world was “so much wasted time.”
Those words came back to me today as I sit in the hospital lounge waiting for 2017 to end.
The new year will start in a few hours, and while I won’t be doing much to celebrate, at least I can take stock of my life.
Since my movements are so severely restricted, I’ve been taking a closer look at what goes on in my brain and I don’t particularly like it.
I spent far too much time regurgitating the awful past in a wasted effort to rewrite my personal history. I’ve said this many times before, but I have yet to learn the lesson.
Now that I am not running around like a lunatic, I can see just how much time I’m wasting tilting at the windmills in my mind.
So I think my New Year’s resolution for 2018 is going to be very simple: stop wasting time.
I have lost a lot of time due to this accident and I will be spending most of the new year just trying to get back to where I was before the snow hit the fan.
I don’t have much say in this physical recovery, but at least I can train my mind to avoid all of these traps and pitfalls that I set up for myself.
I really can’t afford to waste any more energy on things that have already happened. I just don‘t have that luxury.
This accident has really taught me that your life can change in an instant, so whatever big plans you have, start acting on them immediately.
I am literally learning how to walk again; first with a walker and now a cane. This seems like the perfect time to rethink my thinking.
I am not making any grand pronouncements, or looking to make sweeping changes. I just want to adjust my thought patterns so that I am looking forward with hope instead of staring down to the gutter with despair.
I will be leaving rehab soon and going home. I will need to focus my energy on maintaining a safe environment, since I won’t be able to bend my knees for the next several weeks.
It will be challenging, it will be difficult, and I know in my heart it’s going to suck big time.
But I will do my best to stay focused on my recovery instead of my condition. I’m going to stop wasting time.
Happy new year.