I like to do this visualization exercise where I imagine a beam of pure light coming down straight from Heaven and going right into the top of my head.
The beautiful light clears away all the negative thoughts and emotions in my head, breaks the mental chains that are holding me back and allows me to look at the world with a fresh pair of eyes.
The light moves down to my nose, mouth and throat, where it sweeps away all the germs that may be lurking there, a perfect image for a hypochondriac like yours truly.
From there the light surges through my entire body, clearing away and fixing up all my various ailments both real and imagined. This routine may sound corny to some people, but I love it.
However, the other day I got silently tongue-tied when I thought to myself “the light clears away the fear germs.”
Fear germs? There’s no such thing, I told myself.
But now I’m starting to wonder about that. Fear can grip us like a terrible disease if we let it take over our minds. Pretty soon we’re talking ourselves out of all sorts of new possibilities, while talking ourselves into a lifetime of regret and busted dreams.
I’ve got a serious case of the heebie-jeebies right now as I prepare to take a business trip to Philadelphia in the morning.
Bulb in The Woods
I’m posting tonight because I’ve got to catch a train early tomorrow and I’m writing this on my company laptop because my Apple desktop croaked on me two days ago.
Can it really be seven years to since we went down to Prince Street on a snowy afternoon to pick up a shiny new computer and bring it home?
“Your computer is what we would call ‘vintage’,” the young woman from Apple told me Wednesday night. “There’s not much what we can do.”
Of course the timing sucked beyond belief, but then when is there a good time for your computer to kick the bucket?
I don’t have time to run down to the Apple store before I leave and I had to ask my saint of a sister to print out my train ticket so I get my keester down to the City of Brotherly Love. And I’m not anxious to shell out thousands of dollars for a new machine.
On top of that I fouled up the hotel reservation and had to scramble to get a place that’s more expensive and further away from the conference.
That is what I would call “bullshit.”
I’ve got the fear germs crawling all over me, digging into my soul and clinging to my mind--even though I’ve been to these conferences many times before.
A little bit of nerves is one thing, but I’m feeling so antsy right now I could ruin a dozen picnics.
All right, I think we need to throw a little light on the situation. And by a little light, I mean a lot, a gleaming, glorious shaft of sacred light that streaks down from Paradise and penetrates this thick skull of mine.
This spectacular beam is going to burn up those little fear germs like the hideous vermin they are. No moping about the past, no trembling at the future. I’m going to do my job.
All right, then. Let’s light it up.