The Caged Heart

The voice came from behind while two loving hands held me up.

“You have a lot of sweet energy,” it said. “I could feel it while I worked on you.”

The person speaking was Kathryn Davis, a healer, teacher, mystic, and all-around miracle worker as far as I’m concerned.

I went to see her on Sunday for a private energy session and that turned out to be one of the best decisions I’ve made in years.

“You have a good heart,” she told me. “It loves you.”

I have a notoriously low opinion of myself, so hearing that some part of my being actually loves me was so hard to believe that I started crying.

“Is this unusual?” I asked while fishing a tissue out of my pocket.

“No, not at all,” Kathryn said.

I feel so relaxed, so peaceful, and so unlike my usual uptight self. My body is loose, a nagging pain in my right shoulder has faded dramatically, and I feel like I’ve had a massage that reached right down into my soul.

My misdeeds, missteps, and mistakes all seem so distant now. They represent who I was; not who I am.

It’s nice to put down my emotional baggage, step away from years of negative programming and get in touch with my real self.

I find I’m craving water instead of the usual vats of diet ice tea that I guzzle each night. Salty foods like pretzels don’t sit well with me at all, and while I usually put on music when I write, tonight I’m really enjoying the silence. After this session, it seems that my body doesn’t want to be needlessly stimulated.

Kathryn draws from such disciplines as Qigong, Reiki, the Sandlin Technique and others to create a fabulous spiritual experience.

Time For You To Leave

She shares an office with my shrink, which is a mere 10-minute walk from my house.

As soon as I entered Kathryn’s office, I took my wallet, cell phone, and keys, out of my pockets, removed my shoes, and stretched out on her massage table.

Then I closed my eyes and allowed Kathryn to work over my body while soothing music filled the air.

She proceeded very slowly, holding on to various parts of me for several moments before moving on. My breathing became so deep and so steady, as if I were stepping into my body for the first time.

I think I nodded off at some point during the session, but Kathryn assured me that “your spirit was still awake.”

Kathryn said that while my physical body is in good shape, I have a lot of trapped energy that she’s trying to move throughout my system.

“Your heart is in a cage,” she told me. “You have to visualize melting away the bars so it can love you.”

We talked about my difficulties with relationships and Kathryn said she felt that I might have been a monk in a past life because she felt this great sense of devotion.

Only now instead of directing that devotion toward religion, Kathryn suggested I focus on something creative, like writing.

Any other time I probably would have burst out laughing at the idea of being a monk in this or any other life. But now I was ready to receive any insights and advice that Kathryn had to offer.

She also told me that maybe relationships aren’t for me. Please understand she wasn’t telling me to give up looking for Miss Right. It’s more like I shouldn’t put pressure on myself to be with someone if that’s not the direction where my sprit is headed.

As my shrink likes to say, I have to get into a relationship with myself first.

I feel like I’ve been on a long journey, but I realize the journey is just beginning. My inner monk will walk through the byways of my psyche, exploring, discovering, and healing.

And I will use my sweet energy to melt those bars around my heart.

Comments

Ron said…
Oh Rob, there is so much I wish to say after reading this beautifully expressed post! First, I am so glad to hear that your session with Kathryn went to so well and that you were able to accomplish so much profound work in just one session with her. She sounds extremely gifted!

"and I feel like I’ve had a massage that reached right down into my soul."

Isn't energy work amazing? Many people find it difficult to understand how just by using energy, you can unearth and heal so many issues that block us from achieving our full potential. And mainly, as you shared, it all begins with creating a relationship with ourselves first.

And I'm not at all surprised to hear that she said you have a good heart and that it loves you, because I have always been able to sense that about you. You DO have a good heart, my friend!

"but I realize the journey is just beginning. My inner monk will walk through the byways of my psyche, exploring, discovering, and healing."

And it's that way for all of us. Our inner work is a continuous journey.

Thank you so much for sharing this today. And it's ironic that you shared on this topic and used a picture of the chakras, because I have been wanting to share a post on my blog about energy and our chakras. And now I will!

Have a super week, buddy!
That sounds like a wonderful experience. And if she's right and a relationship is not for you at this time, well, maybe we're all too conditioned into thinking everyone must do everything that most people do? There have always been people who do not seem to find one long-term relationship, preferring instead more self-contained lifestyles with relationships which pop up and endure for a while, then fade. OH has two friends like that.
Rob K said…
Hey, buddy, how's it going? I have to say this was a truly fantastic experience and I am looking to build upon it and learn from it.

Energy work is indeed a fantastic experience.

I confess I had my doubts going in, but that's all changed now. Thanks so much for your kind words. I can't wait to read your chakra post!

Take care, buddy! Much love!
Rob K said…
@Hey, Jay, what do you say?

I'm not sure what I want right now in terms of a relationship, but after this experience I feel like the pressure is off. I don't have to run out and "get somebody" just to have them. It's very liberating.

Take care!
Bijoux said…
It's always good to drop the emotional baggage!
Rob K said…
How sweet it is, Bijoux!
Indi Brenda said…
RL, none of this surprises me-it all fits with what I've sensed about you too. You are one of the loveliest people I "know". <3 I'm glad you had this experience...as you said, "How sweet it is". :)
Rob K said…
Thank you so much, Brenda! You're the best!
Stephanie Faris said…
I worried about finding Mr. Right for a long time and finally I found him. But it can be tough. People always say, 'Stop looking,' but that didn't work either. I think the point is that you should do what you love and go about your life and that will naturally lead you to the right person but if you have a full life filled with friends and loved ones and things you enjoy doing, you don't necessarily need someone in your house with you. Sometimes your friends become your "significant others." Or maybe YOU are your significant other. All that matters is that you enjoy the journey!
Rob K said…
Stephanie, that is such a lovely and thoughtful observation.

I have had so much trouble enjoying the journey--often I make every step a challenge.

My life is not as full as I would like it to be, so I think that is the first order of business.

I thank you so much for your insights on this.

Take care!

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